Seeing you, being so
close to you, yet feeling so so distant from you… Knowing you are just next to
me, yet unable to bug you here and there like I used to, unable to look at you,
unable to hold you close to me, unable to hug you tight and cry my heart out.
What should I do? Yes, for a few moments I thought I was getting you back… that
you were coming back… But no, it was just what I felt… no less than a dream. It wasn't coming true.
Just because I keep
smiling, I talk infront of others doesn’t show how I really feel inside. Feel
like crying and bursting inside me, yet unable to cry. Feel like talking but
having no words to describe how I feel. Feel like being happy, act normal but
not knowing how to be anymore. Feel like sleeping but unable to close my eyes,
just because that one scene keeps on repeating on my mind, it haunts me.
I don’t know. My
head seems like it’s going to explode. M just tired. Too tired. Tired of this
life. Tired of everything. Can`t I have you back, please? Why is this happening
to me? Why me?? What bad did I do? What bad did I wish for anyone? What was my
mistake to deserve this much pain? This pain is just unbearable.. :(
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